How could I not go for the Hail Mary?

Imagine you have 50 thousand dollars in loans and you have a family struggling to get ahead in life. A mother who sacrificed her whole life to raise four children and she still has ungrateful children who can’t take her out on vacation. Now imagine there are people in the world who make a few calls, or work a couple hours every day, or buy up all the products of a company and resell them for an astronomically higher price. These are the people who don’t struggle a lot and have all the money they want to buy luxury cars, endless vacations, and don’t have to worry about rent or how they should save their money to spend on Christmas gifts or if they can buy something nice for their nieces and nephews. Now, imagine trying to work a 9 to 5 the ret of your life to buy a house and buy your friends and family nice things that don’t have to be a lot or every other week but once a year. It brings me hysterical rage to try and live this life and not try to become my own owner and business creator. How can I not try? How can I not throw a Hail Mary in my life and continue to throw Hail Mary’s every single opportunity I have to have the slight sliver of success. Other people have done it; why can’t it be me? I want to take care of my family. I want to take care of my friends and my family’s friends. I want to invest in the community. I want to change people’s lives for the better. How can I not throw a Hail Mary? How can I not try and fail. That is the greatest opportunity I could ever have. Not to take it is dumb. That is my biggest fear. To not try and overcome my poverty and legacy. That goes for anyone. Yes, you are safe in your bubble of illusion. That bubble will one day pop. I don’t blame you. I applaud you for being so strong. While I am also scared and not that bright, I’m going to get on my knees and try and crawl through mud and cut myself up in the hopes of one day being the owner of myself. I wish for all people to have the strength but I understand that some people can’t. I hope that my actions will one day help others and uplift them. For if I am the only one who grows; I have failed. My success is only dependent on how many other people I can set free.